Grieving Lisa Curry has revealed how she continues to struggle in the wake of her daughter Jaimi’s death three months ago.
In an emotional statement posted to Instagram, she spoke about change and how her whole world had been turned upside down after losing her beloved daughter at just 33.
“Some change is out of your control leaving you empty and uncertain … and suddenly your whole world is turned upside down,” she said.
“Everything you once knew is now not as it was.
“Every positive and fun thought you once had is now in doubt and challenged.”
Jaimi died on September 13 from an undisclosed long term illness at just 33 years old.
The 58-year-old former Olympian said she did not feel like herself anymore after losing her daughter and it was “testing my very being”.
“Some days I don’t even feel like me anymore, or being me anymore,” she said.
“It feels like it’s changing my direction and I’m OK with that.”
Curry said she did not quite know where to start in the process of healing but felt she would soon figure it out.
“I know that one small thing leads to another, then leads to another until what’s achieved is a big thing,” she said.
“It’s just that I don’t know which small thing to start with yet …. why is that so damn hard?”
The swimmer also revealed why she had decided against professional help.
“People are telling me to seek out help … with psychologists, doctors, people who have been through what I am facing at the moment … but I know in my heart, that I actually have the answers myself,” she said.
Curry has been open during her grieving process, often sharing updates with her Instagram followers.
Her fans have jumped in the comments of her recent post to offer support and thank her for being so transparent with her grief.
“You articulate your thoughts and feelings so poignantly Lisa, helps me to relate to the loss of my beautiful son,” one person said.
“Some days will be diamonds and some stones. Wishing you strength and peace,” another added.